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Yeaaaah, bitches.













... I wish that boy would talk to me. :D :D :D Giddygiddy.

ALIAS OMG

SLOANE IS EVIL KTHXBYE


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ps: shirtless sawyer = GUH.

Most. Stressful. Week. Ever.

I hate AP. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I know absolutely nothing about European History. And I still have Bio to do.




And I still don't have a dress. Score?

mmm, not bad. <3




YES.

You know what I realized today? I have a great life. I have a wonderful family, a beautiful home, people who care about me, friends who I love, and pretty much all the material items I could ask for. I'm sitting here typing on a laptop that my parents bought for me, that I did nothing to deserve, listening to the Beatles on the iPod that was given to me. I'm going to Manhattan for my sixteenth birthday to see Wicked and POTO on Broadway, and for April break my parents are taking us to Las Vegas and the Grand Canyon, and we're cruising around the southwest for a week in a mobile home we're renting just so that we can have a good time. I have never wanted for food, and I have never, ever, been unable to afford something I need.

So yeah, I get zits. Yeah, my love life is in shambles, and yeah, there are people that I don't like and who don't like me. But you know what? Who cares. I have an amazing life.

So, in other news, the Royal River has been suspiciously resembling Niagara Falls as of late.

this cannot happen. this is not the way things were supposed to be.

i can't believe it. i love you so much. i will never forget you. stay, please. i don't think i'll be okay if you go.

it's settled, then. i am now completely, entirely alone.

call me every night. i'll tell you everything that happens. it'll be like you never left. except it'll be completely, entirely different.

♥i'll miss you.

( I love it when personality tests are right. )</p>

First tennis practice today, actually working out felt good. I mean... I hated it, but it felt good.

Bleh. Bored.

Extreme Makeover: Home Edition makes my heart happy.

One-acts was fun. I love drama geeks, they're pretty much my life.

Getting China Taste for dinner = greatest development ever. Mm, orange chicken.

Two out of four one-acts were not very impressive. One was alright, and one was fantabulous. Catie cried and I came pretty darn close.

Have I mentioned that I love drama geeks? We are the most fun people EVER. Saw Autumn from USM which was awesome, and ran into a girl who I went to Pondicherry with five years ago who, suprisingly, recognized me. Small world?

Dad got into a really bad ski accident and is now in a sling for his arm / shoulder and can't really do anything, so I'm being super-daughter and driving him everywhere. Cause I'm that cool. Bets and her mum are going to be here at 2:00 to head to the one-acts (where I finally get to see The Diviners) and until then I'm going to slack around. Awesome.

So today I missed the bus for the second day in a row. Christ, I can't wait until I have my liscense. I've been listening to Jewel becase I finally got my CD back yesterday, which has been extremely therapeutic but my ipod is now unfortunately on the brink of batterylessness which means I'll probably be stuck with no music while I wait for draskumms to come pick me up.

This weekend was fun, although the one-acts were cancelled and deux of the cast members possibly can't come next weekend and we might have to host somewhere else because the good old auditorium is booked by someone else. Which means we'll be showing people around a place we've never been to, which should be interesting. Friday Robin came over so we could "work on our Biology project," which in this case translates to dancing to Billy Joel, the Beatles, and Elton John using pool sticks as floor mikes and then watching Chicago while belting out the songs at full volume. We caught up and ate peanut butter crackers and the Biology project was never mentioned. All in all, it was a very successful evening. Saturday we watched Return To Me, which Robin had never seen, and fell in love with David Duchovony / old Italian men.

Around six I went to Pat's with Sadie and numerous other girls. We ate oodles of pizza, then went back to Sadie's dad's house and made milkshakes, gossed, and got into a huge snowball fight. Another successful evening.

I saw Nicole on Monday for the first time in two and a half years. It was really nice to talk to someone again. She told me to start carrying a journal with me and documenting any strong feelings and stressors so we can find out how to deal with them other than with more medication. Of course I took that and ran with it and have been writing down all my most private thoughts in this little journal, which is actually really great and soothing. Things seem to always be better when you talk about them, and if you can't, writing them down is the next best thing. I've written about a billion pages in the past two days. At this rate, I'm going to need new journals at least every two weeks.

In other news, I have a Biology test tomorrow that I need to study for and drasks should be here soon... I hope she brought me a Diet Coke.

Adios!

You are

That is awful. I love it.

I've been feeling very solitary lately. Lonely as well, but they're not the same thing. I just don't want to do anything. I didn't want to go to the spirit week dance, so I didn't. I didn't want to go to the basketball game, so I didn't. But for doing what I want to, I don't feel all too great. The company of other people doesn't interest me right now, but at the same time being alone makes me feel incredibly hollow. I know that's an odd word, but it's the right one. I just feel very empty, and it's not a good feeling.

I don't want to do anything, and I'm positive that's unhealthy, but I'm afraid to tell my parents because they'll just up my medication, and that's not what I want. I want to overcome this by myself. I'm sick of popping pills every morning and having things fixed. If I keep increasing my Prozac dosage at this rate where will I be when I'm 30? I realize that because of my chemical imbalance I'm less capable than other people of dealing with these kind of feelings, but I still feel that I should be able to deal with them myself.

I feel lonely not for lack of friends - I don't have any to spare, but I'm not friendless. I feel lonely for lack of people who understand me and who I can really talk to. There are people in my life who long to understand me, who try to, and I appreciate their effort more than I can say. I just wish there was someone who I didn't have to work at it with, who I could simply confide in and feel comfortable around.

I need to like someone. I need to have a crush. Anything other than this horrible empty feeling that I get from not having feelings for anyone.

I talked to someone that I hadn't for a while the other day, and I suppose it was nice, but it made me realize that we're all just human. I take people in my mind and make them into things they're not, people who I should impress, who I should strive to have accept me, people who I strech myself to the limit for every day just in hopes that things will finally, finally, be back to normal. Then I realized things have never been normal. Not in my life, anyway.

I just realized what this empty feeling is. I don't feel hollow, I feel lost, and I'm in need of some guidance. Will someone please help me?

So the high point of my day today was getting the Sims 2 Expansion Pack: University.

My conclusion from this is that I need a social life.

Your Score

Your scored -4 on the Moral Order axis and 0.5 on the Moral Rules axis.

Matches

The following items best match your score:

System: Socialism
Variation: Moderate Socialism, Moral Socialism
Ideologies: Social Democratism
US Parties: Democratic Party
Presidents: Jimmy Carter (97.79%)
2004 Election Candidates: Ralph Nader (90.89%), John Kerry (88.10%), George W. Bush (53.39%)
Statistics

Of the 56176 people who took the test:

1.4% had the same score as you.
31.1% were above you on the chart.
57.1% were below you on the chart.
78.9% were to your right on the chart.
14.6% were to your left on the chart.